Saturday, 23 March 2013

Bye bye Milo

(taken 5.3.13)

Sadly on Thursday evening my little dog Milo passed away. I had mentioned he hadn't been well, but after he threw up a small piece of potato he was back to my bouncy barking boy.

All day Thursday he was his usual self, he even eat the extra pasta that I had cooked for him at teatime. Just after 7pm he walked out of the living room, but he was all wobbly, I laid him down and it was if he couldn't really focus on me. He laid there moaning, so I phoned the emergency vet. On the way to take him over he stood up to follow me out, turned round and completely collapsed. Hubby lifted him off the floor and put him in the car. When I got there it was like carrying a small child, he had his head on my shoulder and I had to lay him down so carefully. The vet gave him a good checking over, there was nothing physically wrong with him, so she thought he had had a stroke, this was what I was thinking. I was given the choice to try and treat him, but he was over 12 years old and before we got him he had been through enough. So I covered him with cuddles and tears as he quietly slipped away. I am heartbroken, he has been by my side through so much. But, we get pets to love them and be loved by them, I know the last 10 years of his life we had that. But, I want to have what we know about his early life written somewhere too.

Early 2003 I talked my now hubby into getting a dog. We went to Dogs Trust at Sedbergh, first way round the first block my list was full. But, I got it narrowed down, but for one reason or another the ones I chose weren't suitable for our situation. But, there was the cutest dog wandering behind the people behind the counter. Keith said we'd have him, but we were told that Tyler had been booked, but we could have a look at his brother Milo who was still in hospital. We were told that he would bark at us. We went round to the hospital, Milo did bark, but he had my heart straight away. We then got to know why he was in hospital.
Sedbergh Dog's Trust is sort of on the brow of a hill, and instead of his previous owners taking him in they dropped them off outside. Even after his ordeal Milo had no fear of cars, and he was hit by a passing driver, he went in the the Dog's Trust when the came out they found him in the bushes, not moving. Turn's out the poor little mite had a broken back, so Dog's trust being dogs trust they operated on him, and he had a plate in his back. When we got him he was just getting some downy hair through. When he got wet you could see the huge scar running the length of his back. He was also a bit unsteady on his feet, but he soon strengthened up. 
Seeing how jumpy and flinchy he was was heartbreaking, he had obviously taking some beatings, bless him. I had decided he was going to sleep in the back lobby, but Milo decided he wanted to sleep at the foot of the stairs. That way no one could get past him without him knowing. If people were in different rooms he would constantly pace, when everyone was in the same room he was so happy and content. He was also my shadow, he was so bad I had to turn round and give him time to get behind me so that I didn't stand on him, that is going to take some getting used to. When I went to work I used to drop him off my mam and dads, my dad would take him for long walks round the moor. My original plan for his ashes were to scatter them on the moor, but William asked for a grave, so we're going to put them on top of my mam and dad's grave, just seems right, he was with them so much for most of his life anyway.
I always knew that I'd not see him in pain, so making the final decision for him was easy, even if it was one of the hardest choices I've ever had to make.
The story of my Milo is longer, but I am typing this through my tears, we adopted him on Valentines day 2003, so we had him as part of our family for just over 10 years, my kids came after, so they have always known him.

RIP my doggy boy, you are so missed 




  1. I`m so sorry for your loss, I know exactly how you feel as I lost my cat of 22 years. Pets are part of the family and their loss is felt as deeply as any other family member. My heart goes out to you at this time, hugs Sara xxx

  2. Becky so sorry,
    I am thinking of you,
    be strong.
    Hugs Tamara

  3. Hi Becky,

    I am also crying as I'm typing after reading about Milo. I am so sorry for your loss. We have a retriever and like Milo is such a huge part of the family. You made him a very happy dog for ten years and gave him what he needed after a bad start, loads of love and care.

    Just felt I had to leave you a comment after such a sad post.

    I hope you are all ok

    Karen x

  4. Oh Becky I am so sorry. It is so hard losing our loved pets and my thoughts are with you. Such a lovely story and a truly loved friend.
    Big hugs to you Becky.
    Sharon. xxx

  5. This is so sad. I'm so sorry. My doggy is now 12 and I don't know, what I will do, when she is gone. :(

    I wish you much strength.


  6. It's so sad when this happens Becky so sorry xx

  7. Oh Becky, that's so sad :( I'm tearing up a little here reading :( losing a pet is soooo difficult :( But at least he had a super happy life with you after his rocky start, and the best way for him to go was in the arms of his beloved owner. He's pain-free, at peace and frolicking somewhere now without a plate in his back :)

    Hugs and cuddles, I hope you feel better soon.
    Tags xxx

  8. Oh, Becky.
    Tears are rolling down my face as I leave you this comment.
    I am so sorry to read of your sad loss.
    As a dog owner and lover my heart felt sympathy goes out to you and your family.
    I rescued my Pug from the most awful conditions he experienced seven years ago to give him a second chance at life and that's what you did for Milo.
    It Is beautiful to put his ashes on your Mam and Dad's grave.
    Keep your chin up!
    Donna x

  9. I,m so sorry to hear that...youre heart must be broken. I know mine would.( i also have a dog and 5 cats).I wish you all the best for the whole family and i hope that the pain will go away at some time. I hope you'll understand my writing, these things are always difficult to write when it's not in your own language. But i mean the best with it. Hugs , Martine xx

  10. Oh, Becky, how sad that you've lost Milo. His story is so touching, I had a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes whilst reading it. A much loved pet, who had a very poor start in life but who them found the love of a caring family.

    It is a hard decision to make, I had to do the same for my wee cat Cuillin a couple of years ago, but as much as it hurts us we know we can'tlet them suffer.
    He looks such a wee cutie, and he'll always be remembered, best wishes, kate x

  11. I'm so sorry, Becky. Our pets are such a big part of our lives and they really are members of the family. You did the right thing, though - much better like this than to risk him suffering. Sending you a big hug, Tracey xx

  12. Aww hun :( So sad..... So glad you all had each other for a while sounds like you all needed each other in a in one way an another. Bless Milo <3 xxx

  13. I'm so sorry for your loss Becky.... be strong and take him forever in your heart.

  14. I am so so sorry. Just think he is in a better place. Hugs your way!

  15. Oh Becky hun, I´m so sorry :( I´m tearing up here and reading your story of Milo. It´s so heart broken losing someone special. But you made the right thing and you always have your beautiful memories.

    Sending you a huge hug,

  16. Oh Becky, my heart is aching for you and your family. Having lost our wonderful kitty Carmel 1.5 years ago, and several dogs in the family before that, I know what pain you're going through. Pets bring such joy, and when they pass over the rainbow bridge, you're loosing a much beloved family member. Thinking of you. Many hugs, Sandy

  17. Becky, my heart is with you.
    I know the sorrow you feel, been there, as most of us have.
    Take comfort in remembering he was special.
    Chris xxx

  18. Hello Becky,
    You sad loss has brought sad memories back of when I lost my first dog. I still miss her and always will but as time has gone and another dog later I smile at the lovely memories she left me with. My current dog is 12 years old and was diagnosed with diebeties 2 years ago and we thought we were losing her. But we manage her insulin twice a day and she is still living life like a puppy. So I now treasure each and every day we have her. They are all a very special part of our families and are sorely missed when they pass away. Sending Love to you and your family.
    Take Care.

    Chris X

  19. I am so sorry to hear about your wonderful friend Milo. My heart goes out to your and your family as he was truly one of them sending you a Hug Ginny x

  20. Hi Becky, I am so sorry to hear about Milo. I understand yor feeling though reading your story made me cry. I will feel afraid to lost my one and the only dog one day. I hope i am strong enough to face it like you do.


  21. So sorry Becky. Its so hard but Milo will always be with you in your heart and all those wonderful memories you have.
    Take care and big hugs
    Lozzy xx

  22. sorry to hear about Milo Becky.
    take care for you and your family

    hugs Annemarie

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  25. So sorry for the loss of your sweet Milo. Our pets are part of our family and it is always hard to lose someone you love.


  26. i am so sorry for your loss we get way to attached to our little fur people dont we he`ll always be around you dont worry.

  27. I amd so sorry for the loss of Milo, Becky. I know exactly what you are feeling now, because we had a labrador, Xita, that lived with us and was so loved, it was part of our family for for 12 happy years.
    A friendly hug,

  28. So sad to hear about your dog.. Sending you a BIG hug!... Thinking of you!

  29. OOOO my how touching...My dogs are my world...I know exactly how you feel...big hug how lucky we are to have the chance to share our lives with animals so trusting and loving...they never test us they just love us...

  30. Becky I am so sorry for your loss I know how you feel but you know you did the right thing although as you say it doesn't feel like it I won't say time heals it doesn't you will always miss him but it does get easier and you have your wonderful memories so he will always be in your heart
    Jacki xx

  31. Aawww I'm so sorry for your loss hun. Dogs become so much a part of your family. We got our first doggy in July 2011 and he's been such a therapy for me and we very quickly became a little family.
    It sounds like Milo had a wonderful life with you all and was lucky to have found such loving people after a rough to start to his life. Remember the good times with him hun.
    Take care,

  32. Bless you for adopting Milo and giving him such a loving and caring home. I am so sorry for your loss of this gentle soul who meant so much to your family. My thoughts are with you.